Courage: What is courage anyway?

Do you ever have that part of you that really wants to do something and then you just feel a block of something that says I can’t? Sometimes I do. A tug of war starts between I really want to do it and I just can’t do it. So which do you listen to?  Maybe for a while it’s to the part of you that says ‘I can’t do this’. When this happens to me, I find myself procrastinating and doing all the jobs that I have been putting off doing. A momentary feeling of delight with all the jobs I have done until I remember what it is that I really want to be doing. My heart sinks. The tug of war starts again, ‘come on just do it’ vs ‘I can’t’. A block that feels like a brick wall inside me. What’s behind this block? Fear, what ifs, anxiety, frustration, keeping me shut down, keeping me small.  It’s courage I need, but what is courage anyway and where can I buy some because I’m not feeling it right now. Is courage an emotion that we actually feel anyway?

We can listen to the part of us that says ‘I can’ and we can listen to the part of us that says ‘I can’t’. Both are true depending on which voice we listen to. I really believe where our attention goes, energy flows so we create our own reality.

There are different definitions of what courage actually is. The Collinsdictionary.com states, 

Courage as the quality shown by someone who decides to do something difficult or dangerous, even though they may be afraid.​

Another definition from the Dictionary.com states, 
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Courage as the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear, bravery.
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According to these contradicting definitions is courage with or without fear? 

Courage is a curious word and has got me thinking. What does it actually mean? Do we ever ‘feel’ courageous. Do we ever think of ourselves as ‘courageous’? Is courage something we think we need to feel before doing something that we feel anxious about? Or do we only ever think that other people are courageous or have courage and not ourselves?

When we feel fear, we definitely do not feel brave or courageous so is it only when we do something we fear doing that means we are courageous, or can we still be courageous doing something that we didn’t fear doing? Maybe it’s both.
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What makes my heart sing is; the root word for courage is Coeur, which is French for the word heart. The heart seeks truth. Seeking truth even when we feel fear, or even when we fear feeling fear. Speaking our truth and living in ways that are true to our own soul. They say that we either feel love or we feel fear and that we don’t feel the two together. What it seems to me this word is saying is that to be courageous is to feel fear and at the same time be driven by our heart, love, and do it anyway.   
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Courage is a love affair with the unknown

- Osho